So...God has blessed me with 18 years!
I hope that I have managed to live a life that pleases Him up to this point, and I will continue to work hard every day to live my life (however many more years He gives me) entirely dedicated to Him.
I'm so grateful for all of the amazing blessings in my life.
God is soooo good!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Strength
Lately, I have been feeling like life is really, really good. Yes, I have a few struggles here and there, but I've just been feeling really blessed and satisfied and content; however, my friends are going through some really tough stuff. It seems like with every good thing that happens to me, something bad happens to them. I feel like God is using this happiness and peace that I have so that I can be a complete wall of strength for my friends.
I've always been the kind of girl who really feels for other people when they are suffering just as if it was happening to me. When something sad happens to my friends, I cry even before they do. I hurt when they hurt; I smile when they smile. I need to be there for them. It's just a part of how God programmed me. But sometimes, when things are just going so bad, I don't even know what to say!
Tonight was one of those nights. It was rough. I have a friend who's suffering, and I'm clueless as to how to handle it. Once again, though, God cleared things up for me. He guided my hands to open my Bible to 1 Chronicles 16:11-12.
"Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always. Remember the wonders he has done, his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced."
Wow. God is awesome.
I have to believe that God will take care of my friends better than I ever could. I have to believe that He is constantly there for them, and for me, and I have to believe that He can still do miracles. If I don't believe these things anymore, then I will have nothing left. He is everything.
I've always been the kind of girl who really feels for other people when they are suffering just as if it was happening to me. When something sad happens to my friends, I cry even before they do. I hurt when they hurt; I smile when they smile. I need to be there for them. It's just a part of how God programmed me. But sometimes, when things are just going so bad, I don't even know what to say!
Tonight was one of those nights. It was rough. I have a friend who's suffering, and I'm clueless as to how to handle it. Once again, though, God cleared things up for me. He guided my hands to open my Bible to 1 Chronicles 16:11-12.
"Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always. Remember the wonders he has done, his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced."
Wow. God is awesome.
I have to believe that God will take care of my friends better than I ever could. I have to believe that He is constantly there for them, and for me, and I have to believe that He can still do miracles. If I don't believe these things anymore, then I will have nothing left. He is everything.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
College Talk (Again)
So I had another long college conversation with my mom today.
I find myself thinking more and more about how much I love spending time with kids, and how I'd love to make a difference in their lives and help them make smart choices and feel loved. I've always said that I'd never be a teacher. I've grown up with two teachers, and I've seen everything - the good, the bad, and the absolutely ugly. But ever since I can remember, kids have just kind of...gravitated towards me. And I love them! Maybe I should go into teaching. I just don't know.
There are so many choices! I feel like I have these voices bouncing around in my head:
"Do this!"
"No, no, not that career. How about this one? It's so much better."
"You're smart. Go into math and science. It's the way to go."
"You're really artsy. Go into the arts; you'll be happier."
"Don't forget about money! You want money, don't you?"
"Forget about college! Go work at McDonalds! This is too much stress!"
I don't know what to do! The only voice I want to hear in my head is God clearly stating which direction I should take for my life. I'm trying to be patient and wait to see what He has planned, but it's my senior year. It's here. It's starting. I need a plan. I need to solve things. I need, I need, I need...
I need to let go and let God.
Easier said than done, but it has to be done, or I will go crazy. I am a teeny, tiny little human, a small speck on earth, and God has my life totally under control. My life story is already finished. He's got it covered. Sometimes that's so hard to remember.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
I thank God that He has everything taken care of. I thank God that He is so brilliant, and He has patience with a very impatient little girl like me. I thank God that He is so big when I feel so small.
I find myself thinking more and more about how much I love spending time with kids, and how I'd love to make a difference in their lives and help them make smart choices and feel loved. I've always said that I'd never be a teacher. I've grown up with two teachers, and I've seen everything - the good, the bad, and the absolutely ugly. But ever since I can remember, kids have just kind of...gravitated towards me. And I love them! Maybe I should go into teaching. I just don't know.
There are so many choices! I feel like I have these voices bouncing around in my head:
"Do this!"
"No, no, not that career. How about this one? It's so much better."
"You're smart. Go into math and science. It's the way to go."
"You're really artsy. Go into the arts; you'll be happier."
"Don't forget about money! You want money, don't you?"
"Forget about college! Go work at McDonalds! This is too much stress!"
I don't know what to do! The only voice I want to hear in my head is God clearly stating which direction I should take for my life. I'm trying to be patient and wait to see what He has planned, but it's my senior year. It's here. It's starting. I need a plan. I need to solve things. I need, I need, I need...
I need to let go and let God.
Easier said than done, but it has to be done, or I will go crazy. I am a teeny, tiny little human, a small speck on earth, and God has my life totally under control. My life story is already finished. He's got it covered. Sometimes that's so hard to remember.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
I thank God that He has everything taken care of. I thank God that He is so brilliant, and He has patience with a very impatient little girl like me. I thank God that He is so big when I feel so small.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Fictionally Yours
Ok, so, I was reading the blog of Just a Girl 4 God today, and she had this tag that was basically about books. I can't fill out the tag myself because the questions are too hard - how I can I possibly pick my absolute favorite male and female character from fiction? But, I have decided to address the topic of:
Favorite Male Fictional Characters
I have many. I'll just talk about some of them. It will be like a therapy session. Oh, and I should probably say that this kind of contains spoilers for certain books. Not exactly, though. I wouldn't just flat out tell the ending of any book. That's a horrid thing to do. (Note: These are not in order. I'd feel guilty if I had to order them. They're all so near and dear to my heart.)
1) Prince Char from Ella Enchanted by Gail Carson Levine
He is marvelous! He's so dashing and caring and romantic. I love how he sees the real Ella - funny, clumsy, spicy, smart - and he not only accepts all of those quirky traits, but loves them.
2) Mr. Knightly from Emma by Jane Austen
Ok, he's super. I've always loved the idea of a "best friend's older brother" or "best guy friend" type falling for the girl. It makes so much sense! Those are the boys who see us at our absolute worse - no make-up, messy hair, sweatpants - and don't think we're absolutely hideous. They know our hearts, and they're used to our personalities. Someday, I'd like to fall for someone who is one of those types, be it "best friend's older brother" or "best guy friend." Anyway, Mr. Knightly is always giving Emma advice, and he's not afraid to totally knock her down a peg or two...or five. It's so refreshing.
3) Jehu from Boston Jane by Jennifer L. Holm
So Jane is fancy little city girl who has to go live in the wilderness. Who is the official "wilderness guru," the only person she can turn to for assistance? Jehu. It's one of those relationships where you get really, really mad at the guy because he sees you at all of your worst possible moments, so you hate him all of the time, but really, there's an underlying attraction that you simply cannot get rid of. Have you noticed how easily we fall for the guys who have those little secret smirks that we can't understand or the ones that seem to be making fun of us when we don't know what we're doing? Yeah. That's Jehu. I love him.
4) Owen from Just Listen by Sarah Dessen
In this list, there will be at least three Sarah Dessen characters. I ask that you please deal with it; I love Sarah Dessen's books. She is my favorite author besides Jane Austen. Anyway, moving on to Owen. Yes, in the book he has anger management issues (but he's in therapy)! But he never lies! And he's the type of guy who is constantly encouraging you to just be you. I'm not sure about you, but I want that! I want someone who sees the real me, and thinks, "Wow! She's amazing! Everyone should see exactly what I see when I look at her!" I have an enormous crush on Owen.
5) Michael Hosea from Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers
This is probably one of the most incredible books of all time. I suggest that you read it. The story is based on the story of Hosea from the Bible, how he is married to a prostitute, and no matter how many times she runs away from him or lets him down, he still absolutely adores her. He never gives up waiting for her and loving her. It's an amazing story. It reflects the love story that we have with Jesus Christ. He is just waiting for us to accept him. He loves us unconditionally. Michael Hosea is the ideal guy to fall in love with.
6) Edward Cullen from Twilight by Stephanie Meyer
I know that half of you are probably cheering this choice on, while the other half are booing me (sorry, Ab, but you haven't read the books, so don't judge...lol). I don't really care. I am not ashamed to say that I love the Twilight series, and I love Edward. The way he loves Bella just makes me melt. He's so attentive and sweet and selfless and old-fashioned. How can you not help but like him? But there's also the other side of things...
7) Jacob Black from Twilight by Stephanie Meyer
Yes, I love Edward, but I also love Jacob. He fits into that "best guy friend" role perfectly. He picks up the messy pieces of Bella's broken heart and tries to put them back together. Sometimes he's childish and sometimes he's annoying, but he's honest and good and has the best intentions in the world - Bella's happiness. I know that the Edward and Bella story is epic and all, but sometimes, I just wonder what it'd be like if Jacob and Bella were together.
8)Wes from The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen
I love Wes! I don't even completely know why. Maybe because he's real, and hunky, and charming without trying, and just completely incredible. I really wish I had a Wes of my own.
9) Robert Langdon from The DaVinci Code by Dan Brown
I know he's a little old for me, but he's so awesome! He's brilliant, for one thing, and I have a major soft spot for these type of adventure/history novels where a guy and a girl end up working together, and they fall in love. The DaVinci Code, Angels and Demons, The Historian - all brilliant novels in which the two main characters fall in love while desperately fighting time to save the world. Or a corner of the world. That's near perfection, right there.
10) Sam from Bassakwards and Bellyup by Elizabeth Craft and Sarah Fain
He's snarky and sarcastic and gorgeous and real, and he believes in her! What could be better? And, he is completely unafraid to knock her on her butt more than a couple times when she needs it. Ah, true love.
11) Dexter from This Lullaby by Sarah Dessen
He's such a cute little music nerd! I adore Dexter. The way he's messy and wanna-be debonair and so dedicated to making Remy fall in love with him is enough to make me swoon! Seriously, Sarah Dessen is a genius at creating the most likeable, wonderful, fictional boys out of thin air. She has a gift.
12) Zack from Jinx by Meg Cabot
I just had a huge crush on Zack from the very beginning of the book. He's attractive and smart and funny, and he helps Jinx skip gym class to eat ice cream. There are very few things that are better than that! He's just so great. I love Zack.
13) Justin from Ever After by Karen Kingsbury
I can't really discuss Justin or this book without crying. I suggest that you go read the first book in this series, Even Now, and then read Ever After. Once you're done drying your eyes, we'll talk.
14) Ian from The Host by Stephanie Meyer
Yay, Ian! He's so great! How do I even explain how wonderful he is without sounding like a freak? Basically, he loves this girl who isn't really a girl, but a small worm-like alien thing, but even when he sees the small worm-like alien form of her, he thinks she's beautiful! Yeah...I'm sorry. The book isn't as creepy or stupid or as science-fictiony as I just made it sound. You should just go read it. You'll love Ian as much as I do.
15) Frederick Wentworth from Persuasion by Jane Austen
All you have to do is read his incredible letter that he wrote to Anne. It's probably the most romantic letter in all of fiction. You can read it here. It's brilliant.
Ok, well...I would like to take this opportunity to apologize for this absolutely obnoxious post. It was very long, and I rambled quite a bit. If you actually read the whole thing...well, then, consider yourself thoroughly loved by me! This definitely is not a complete list of all of my fiction crushes; that list would take years and years to compile. It's a mere fraction of the wonderful men who have entered my life through books.
Please post your favorite male fiction characters, and tell me about them! Perhaps it will give me some new boys to crush on. :)
Favorite Male Fictional Characters
I have many. I'll just talk about some of them. It will be like a therapy session. Oh, and I should probably say that this kind of contains spoilers for certain books. Not exactly, though. I wouldn't just flat out tell the ending of any book. That's a horrid thing to do. (Note: These are not in order. I'd feel guilty if I had to order them. They're all so near and dear to my heart.)
1) Prince Char from Ella Enchanted by Gail Carson Levine
He is marvelous! He's so dashing and caring and romantic. I love how he sees the real Ella - funny, clumsy, spicy, smart - and he not only accepts all of those quirky traits, but loves them.
2) Mr. Knightly from Emma by Jane Austen
Ok, he's super. I've always loved the idea of a "best friend's older brother" or "best guy friend" type falling for the girl. It makes so much sense! Those are the boys who see us at our absolute worse - no make-up, messy hair, sweatpants - and don't think we're absolutely hideous. They know our hearts, and they're used to our personalities. Someday, I'd like to fall for someone who is one of those types, be it "best friend's older brother" or "best guy friend." Anyway, Mr. Knightly is always giving Emma advice, and he's not afraid to totally knock her down a peg or two...or five. It's so refreshing.
3) Jehu from Boston Jane by Jennifer L. Holm
So Jane is fancy little city girl who has to go live in the wilderness. Who is the official "wilderness guru," the only person she can turn to for assistance? Jehu. It's one of those relationships where you get really, really mad at the guy because he sees you at all of your worst possible moments, so you hate him all of the time, but really, there's an underlying attraction that you simply cannot get rid of. Have you noticed how easily we fall for the guys who have those little secret smirks that we can't understand or the ones that seem to be making fun of us when we don't know what we're doing? Yeah. That's Jehu. I love him.
4) Owen from Just Listen by Sarah Dessen
In this list, there will be at least three Sarah Dessen characters. I ask that you please deal with it; I love Sarah Dessen's books. She is my favorite author besides Jane Austen. Anyway, moving on to Owen. Yes, in the book he has anger management issues (but he's in therapy)! But he never lies! And he's the type of guy who is constantly encouraging you to just be you. I'm not sure about you, but I want that! I want someone who sees the real me, and thinks, "Wow! She's amazing! Everyone should see exactly what I see when I look at her!" I have an enormous crush on Owen.
5) Michael Hosea from Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers
This is probably one of the most incredible books of all time. I suggest that you read it. The story is based on the story of Hosea from the Bible, how he is married to a prostitute, and no matter how many times she runs away from him or lets him down, he still absolutely adores her. He never gives up waiting for her and loving her. It's an amazing story. It reflects the love story that we have with Jesus Christ. He is just waiting for us to accept him. He loves us unconditionally. Michael Hosea is the ideal guy to fall in love with.
6) Edward Cullen from Twilight by Stephanie Meyer
I know that half of you are probably cheering this choice on, while the other half are booing me (sorry, Ab, but you haven't read the books, so don't judge...lol). I don't really care. I am not ashamed to say that I love the Twilight series, and I love Edward. The way he loves Bella just makes me melt. He's so attentive and sweet and selfless and old-fashioned. How can you not help but like him? But there's also the other side of things...
7) Jacob Black from Twilight by Stephanie Meyer
Yes, I love Edward, but I also love Jacob. He fits into that "best guy friend" role perfectly. He picks up the messy pieces of Bella's broken heart and tries to put them back together. Sometimes he's childish and sometimes he's annoying, but he's honest and good and has the best intentions in the world - Bella's happiness. I know that the Edward and Bella story is epic and all, but sometimes, I just wonder what it'd be like if Jacob and Bella were together.
8)Wes from The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen
I love Wes! I don't even completely know why. Maybe because he's real, and hunky, and charming without trying, and just completely incredible. I really wish I had a Wes of my own.
9) Robert Langdon from The DaVinci Code by Dan Brown
I know he's a little old for me, but he's so awesome! He's brilliant, for one thing, and I have a major soft spot for these type of adventure/history novels where a guy and a girl end up working together, and they fall in love. The DaVinci Code, Angels and Demons, The Historian - all brilliant novels in which the two main characters fall in love while desperately fighting time to save the world. Or a corner of the world. That's near perfection, right there.
10) Sam from Bassakwards and Bellyup by Elizabeth Craft and Sarah Fain
He's snarky and sarcastic and gorgeous and real, and he believes in her! What could be better? And, he is completely unafraid to knock her on her butt more than a couple times when she needs it. Ah, true love.
11) Dexter from This Lullaby by Sarah Dessen
He's such a cute little music nerd! I adore Dexter. The way he's messy and wanna-be debonair and so dedicated to making Remy fall in love with him is enough to make me swoon! Seriously, Sarah Dessen is a genius at creating the most likeable, wonderful, fictional boys out of thin air. She has a gift.
12) Zack from Jinx by Meg Cabot
I just had a huge crush on Zack from the very beginning of the book. He's attractive and smart and funny, and he helps Jinx skip gym class to eat ice cream. There are very few things that are better than that! He's just so great. I love Zack.
13) Justin from Ever After by Karen Kingsbury
I can't really discuss Justin or this book without crying. I suggest that you go read the first book in this series, Even Now, and then read Ever After. Once you're done drying your eyes, we'll talk.
14) Ian from The Host by Stephanie Meyer
Yay, Ian! He's so great! How do I even explain how wonderful he is without sounding like a freak? Basically, he loves this girl who isn't really a girl, but a small worm-like alien thing, but even when he sees the small worm-like alien form of her, he thinks she's beautiful! Yeah...I'm sorry. The book isn't as creepy or stupid or as science-fictiony as I just made it sound. You should just go read it. You'll love Ian as much as I do.
15) Frederick Wentworth from Persuasion by Jane Austen
All you have to do is read his incredible letter that he wrote to Anne. It's probably the most romantic letter in all of fiction. You can read it here. It's brilliant.
Ok, well...I would like to take this opportunity to apologize for this absolutely obnoxious post. It was very long, and I rambled quite a bit. If you actually read the whole thing...well, then, consider yourself thoroughly loved by me! This definitely is not a complete list of all of my fiction crushes; that list would take years and years to compile. It's a mere fraction of the wonderful men who have entered my life through books.
Please post your favorite male fiction characters, and tell me about them! Perhaps it will give me some new boys to crush on. :)
Psalm 46
"God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth gives way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells.
God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day.
Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Come and see the works of the Lord, the desolations he has brought on the earth.
He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the shields with fire.
Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress."
Sometimes I just need to read these words over and over again. Sometimes I just need to rediscover how powerful and mighty and incredibly amazing God really is. And sometimes, I just need a reminder that God is within me. He is within me, and I will aboslutely not fall. Yes, I will stumble. But I will not fall.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth gives way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells.
God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day.
Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Come and see the works of the Lord, the desolations he has brought on the earth.
He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the shields with fire.
Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress."
Sometimes I just need to read these words over and over again. Sometimes I just need to rediscover how powerful and mighty and incredibly amazing God really is. And sometimes, I just need a reminder that God is within me. He is within me, and I will aboslutely not fall. Yes, I will stumble. But I will not fall.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Chapsticks, Cameras, and Crowns
Ok so...I've had a suggestion to explain what the title of my blog actually means. Some people who know me really well probably don't need an explanation, but for those of you who don't know a lot about me, here you go.
Chapstick - I never go anywhere without chapstick. Ever. I have to have it. One time, I was going to school, and I forgot my chapstick. Lucky for me, I have an awesome dad who stopped to get some for me at the gas station. I take a writing class during the school year at a local college, and in my writing class, our teacher asked us to write Six Word Memoirs. By the way - Six Word Memoirs are so fun! You basically just try to write your life story, or an explanation of your life, in six words. One that I came up with was "Must have chapstick in my pocket." What's your Six Word Memoir?
Cameras - I love taking pictures! I'm a member of the yearbook staff at my school (actually, my two friends and I are Editors!), and we have this really, really nice camera that only occasionally acts naughty and screws up pictures for us. I love using it. I was thinking this morning how awesome the invention of the camera was. How cool is it that we can take a picture and record practically anything that happens in our lives? How else would we be able to freeze our memories, except through writing? It's so cool. In my opinion, cameras are one of the best inventions of all time.
Crowns - I went through the normal childhood obsession with princesses just like most girls do at a young age. But then, when I was 15, the obsession resurfaced. For my 16th birthday, I had a Disney Princess party complete with the balloons, the ice cream cake with Disney Princess figurines, and too many Disney Princess cards and presents to even keep track of. At that birthday, I received over 2,000 Disney Princess stickers. Since age 15, I have had four crowns and one magic wand. Two of those four crowns have had light-up capabilities. Also, I am working on writing a book called Crowned which is basically about the connections between Disney Princesses and the way a Christian girl should live.
So there you are! Hopefully that explains the blog title and tells you a little more about me!
Chapstick - I never go anywhere without chapstick. Ever. I have to have it. One time, I was going to school, and I forgot my chapstick. Lucky for me, I have an awesome dad who stopped to get some for me at the gas station. I take a writing class during the school year at a local college, and in my writing class, our teacher asked us to write Six Word Memoirs. By the way - Six Word Memoirs are so fun! You basically just try to write your life story, or an explanation of your life, in six words. One that I came up with was "Must have chapstick in my pocket." What's your Six Word Memoir?
Cameras - I love taking pictures! I'm a member of the yearbook staff at my school (actually, my two friends and I are Editors!), and we have this really, really nice camera that only occasionally acts naughty and screws up pictures for us. I love using it. I was thinking this morning how awesome the invention of the camera was. How cool is it that we can take a picture and record practically anything that happens in our lives? How else would we be able to freeze our memories, except through writing? It's so cool. In my opinion, cameras are one of the best inventions of all time.
Crowns - I went through the normal childhood obsession with princesses just like most girls do at a young age. But then, when I was 15, the obsession resurfaced. For my 16th birthday, I had a Disney Princess party complete with the balloons, the ice cream cake with Disney Princess figurines, and too many Disney Princess cards and presents to even keep track of. At that birthday, I received over 2,000 Disney Princess stickers. Since age 15, I have had four crowns and one magic wand. Two of those four crowns have had light-up capabilities. Also, I am working on writing a book called Crowned which is basically about the connections between Disney Princesses and the way a Christian girl should live.
So there you are! Hopefully that explains the blog title and tells you a little more about me!
Monday, August 17, 2009
"I only culture you because I love you!"
I am forcing my bud Abby to watch Slumdog Millionaire. She:
A) Thought it was a musical (and she despises musicals) and
B) Hates Bollywood
But I think she might end up liking it.
I want to learn how to do a Bollywood dance! They're so exciting!
I went to a summer dance class tonight (at Movement Unlimited Dance Studio - best dance studio ever), and I was just thinking about how much dance has done for me in the past year.
At the beginning of last year, I was extremely shy in dance class. I was really self-conscious about dancing and moving in front of people. I didn't like to put myself out there when it came to any type of dancing, whether it was auditioning for a musical or even hanging out a school dance. I just basically refused to dance in front of people.
But now - I can step up in a dance class and just enjoy myself. I don't care as much what people think. I dance because it's so much fun.
I noticed how much I changed when I went on a trip with a club from school. There was a DJ and a "dance" going on, and I got right in there with everyone and danced! Then, I helped to lead a line dance! I learned to let go and just dance. I love it.
The next obstacle is to learn how to let go and just sing in front of people. It will definitely be a huge obstacle for me.
A) Thought it was a musical (and she despises musicals) and
B) Hates Bollywood
But I think she might end up liking it.
I want to learn how to do a Bollywood dance! They're so exciting!
I went to a summer dance class tonight (at Movement Unlimited Dance Studio - best dance studio ever), and I was just thinking about how much dance has done for me in the past year.
At the beginning of last year, I was extremely shy in dance class. I was really self-conscious about dancing and moving in front of people. I didn't like to put myself out there when it came to any type of dancing, whether it was auditioning for a musical or even hanging out a school dance. I just basically refused to dance in front of people.
But now - I can step up in a dance class and just enjoy myself. I don't care as much what people think. I dance because it's so much fun.
I noticed how much I changed when I went on a trip with a club from school. There was a DJ and a "dance" going on, and I got right in there with everyone and danced! Then, I helped to lead a line dance! I learned to let go and just dance. I love it.
The next obstacle is to learn how to let go and just sing in front of people. It will definitely be a huge obstacle for me.
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