Growing Up

It's not that I want to leave and escape from everyone. But every time I think of myself out there in the real world, without the comfort of my little high school where my teachers are like family and my dad's only a couple of halls away, I get nervous. And I don't want to be nervous. I want to feel in control and totally 100% sure that this is it, I'm ok, I'll survive just fine. That's why I make the distance between myself and everyone else. That's why I'm not attached anymore, to anyone as much as I used to be. I'm just hoping that it will make it easier to leave.