Hi.
I have a prayer request. I can't really give many details, but I would just appreciate it if you would just keep it in the back of your mind. Thanks.
Glee was a little lame tonight. I love Kristen Chenoweth as much as the next Broadway-loving girl, but please - alcohol and country songs? I need just a little more creativity than that. The best part of the episode was the music video to the very last song of the episode. If I find it, I'll post it soon. And Will and Emma need to get together. Seriously. It's time.
It has been cold and wet and rainy lately, and I hate it. I just want the sun to come back. Cold weather is such a downer.
Tomorrow is October 1 which means - Christmas Music!!! I always play Christmas music on the first day of October. Can't wait.
Just keep praying, guys. God has everything under control.
"In the silence, you are peace. In the distance, you are here. My soul thirsts for you, oh my soul thirsts for you. In the sadness, you are joy. In the madness, I won't fear. My heart aches for you, oh my heart aches for you."
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
The Things I've Done To Get Your Attention
I've tried to be brilliant. I've worked hard since 4th grade to get wonderful grades, studying when I had to, waffling when necessary, and making sure that everything I did was done as perfect as possible. It's only recently that I realized that maybe you don't care about this as much as I always thought you did.
I've tried to be talented. I've practiced my singing constantly. I’ve memorized songs; I sang in Latin; I’ve performed in music festivals in different states; I was in a band. I've made myself get over the stage fright just so I could make you notice me, but it never seemed to matter very much to you.
I've tried to be like you. I've tried to like the things you like, and I've tried to act like you. I've tried to follow in your footsteps so that you would notice and be interested in me. I guess we never really had that much in common, though, did we?
I've tried to be a good person. I've tried to learn to control my temper and stay away from bad situations. I've tried going to church and doing the right thing. I've tried not getting into trouble and being close to boring because it's better safe than sorry.
I've tried to be beautiful. I've tried to measure up to other people. I've tried to fix the things I could about myself and accept the things I couldn't. I've lost the weight and fixed the hair and bought the clothes and had the smile, but you don't seem to care.
I just wanted to be noticed, but now, I don't care that much anymore.
God notices me. He thinks I'm smart and talented and beautiful, and he notices that I try to emulate him and try to be a good person. That should completely satisfy me, but sometimes, it doesn't.
I've tried to be talented. I've practiced my singing constantly. I’ve memorized songs; I sang in Latin; I’ve performed in music festivals in different states; I was in a band. I've made myself get over the stage fright just so I could make you notice me, but it never seemed to matter very much to you.
I've tried to be like you. I've tried to like the things you like, and I've tried to act like you. I've tried to follow in your footsteps so that you would notice and be interested in me. I guess we never really had that much in common, though, did we?
I've tried to be a good person. I've tried to learn to control my temper and stay away from bad situations. I've tried going to church and doing the right thing. I've tried not getting into trouble and being close to boring because it's better safe than sorry.
I've tried to be beautiful. I've tried to measure up to other people. I've tried to fix the things I could about myself and accept the things I couldn't. I've lost the weight and fixed the hair and bought the clothes and had the smile, but you don't seem to care.
I just wanted to be noticed, but now, I don't care that much anymore.
God notices me. He thinks I'm smart and talented and beautiful, and he notices that I try to emulate him and try to be a good person. That should completely satisfy me, but sometimes, it doesn't.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Opera & Editors
Ab and I stayed after school yesterday to work on Yearbook, and we ended up getting a little distracted singing opera hahaha.
Go here to see me singing Little Mermaid opera style.
Go here to see Abby and I begin our opera duet career.
Tell us what you think. We'll make you a CD. :)
Haha but really...this is the only way we get through the year with all of our Yearbook stress. We dance to disco, we sing opera, and we de-stress each other.
I will try to convince her to post our Aladdin duet. Personally, I think it's one of our best.
Go here to see me singing Little Mermaid opera style.
Go here to see Abby and I begin our opera duet career.
Tell us what you think. We'll make you a CD. :)
Haha but really...this is the only way we get through the year with all of our Yearbook stress. We dance to disco, we sing opera, and we de-stress each other.
I will try to convince her to post our Aladdin duet. Personally, I think it's one of our best.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
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Ok...please allow me to have a brief shallow moment to talk about the two only TV shows that I watch (besides Project Runway, but I usually just catch the day-long marathon when the season is over). Glee and Bones - I just love these shows! That's all I'm going to say. Send me a message if you would like to discuss all of the relationships in these shows. I'm all fired up, and I want everyone to be together! Ugh. TV is frustrating.
I will probably post something else tonight, but I just really needed to talk about this. I'm done now, though. No worries. :)
I will probably post something else tonight, but I just really needed to talk about this. I'm done now, though. No worries. :)
Saturday, September 19, 2009
500 Days of Summer
So I know that I said I was going to write book reviews, but I have been so busy that I haven't had time to finish a book all the way through! It's kind of sad, actually. I'm working on Emma by Jane Austen, Tamar by Mal Peet, Nobody's Perfect by Anthony Lane, and Push Not the River by James Conroyd Martin. I pinkie promise that when I get one of these completely finished, I'll write a book review.
In the meantime, I'll write a movie review about a movie that I waited months and months to watch (literally about six months), and I finally watched it today!
The movie was 500 Days of Summer, and I have been hyping it up in my head since I saw the first preview for it.
While the movie was really great - incredible actors (I love Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Zooey Deschanel), witty and engaging script, and brilliant sets that really complete the whole story - it was a little bittersweet.
I'm not going to give anything away because I really hate that when people give away things for me. I will say this, though. The narrator warns you right in the beginning that the movie is "not a love story." If you've watched the movie, what did you think? Be careful what you post in a comment, though - no spoilers!
The best thing about this movie, though, was the soundtrack. The music was so amazing. In fact, the new music that you hear right now if you're reading this is made up entirely of songs from the movie. What do you think? I love it.
To those of you who liked my other playlist better - no worries. It will be back. This is just temporary, I think.
In the meantime, I'll write a movie review about a movie that I waited months and months to watch (literally about six months), and I finally watched it today!
The movie was 500 Days of Summer, and I have been hyping it up in my head since I saw the first preview for it.
While the movie was really great - incredible actors (I love Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Zooey Deschanel), witty and engaging script, and brilliant sets that really complete the whole story - it was a little bittersweet.
I'm not going to give anything away because I really hate that when people give away things for me. I will say this, though. The narrator warns you right in the beginning that the movie is "not a love story." If you've watched the movie, what did you think? Be careful what you post in a comment, though - no spoilers!
The best thing about this movie, though, was the soundtrack. The music was so amazing. In fact, the new music that you hear right now if you're reading this is made up entirely of songs from the movie. What do you think? I love it.
To those of you who liked my other playlist better - no worries. It will be back. This is just temporary, I think.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Hectic
These pictures are all from a photoshoot that one of my best friends Abby and I had this week. Our moms took the pictures (they're great photographers!), and these are some of our favorites. I'll post a link to the whole album eventually, and you can check out more of the pictures if you would like.
Well, this week was our first full week of school, and it was a little rough.
I definitely made a schedule for myself that is nearly impossible to follow. The best parts of my day are Writer's Workshop, French, and English class. Without those classes and those teachers, and I don't think I could handle school at all. Physics and Pre-Calc are just bringing me down. I have never doubted myself as much as I do in those classes. Ugh.
Yearbook is actually going really well! Yearbook Staff Applications were turned in today, and we got (surprise!) about 10 applications! We have choices! I'm really excited about the staff and about this year's book. It's going to be really amazing, and the whole process will become much more efficient.
I had my first dance classes of the year last night. I'm taking hip-hop, tap, and modern this year. I love dance. I have the best teacher, Miss Heather, and I have so many friends in my classes. It's just a great way to exercise, have fun, and best of all, relax a little from my horrible schedule.
The college/major search continues. I really have no new updates. I'm just trying to trust God to figure out what I'm supposed to do with my life.
This weekend, I have absolutely no homework! I plan on listening to music, reading too much Shakespeare and Austen (I'm just in the mood), and basically giving my fried brain a relaxing "spa weekend."
I went to a school football game tonight, and I saw so many of my old friends that I haven't seen in months and months. It was so great to see everyone. It was like having the "old group" back, which was a little bittersweet. It's weird to think about how many memories you have with certain people and then in a matter of weeks, months, or years, that can all change. You have to rely on the memories to even connect anymore. I don't really like it.
One friend in particular I was so happy to see. He and I have been relatively close for about 4 or 5 years now. Unfortunately, when he went to college, that changed a little. I was always nervous to call him a best friend because I wasn't sure if that was what we really were or if he felt like that too, but now, I don't care. He was a definite best friend to me, and I'm really grateful that he can still be a part of life even if it's in a smaller way than it used to be.
So...that's my little update! Let me know what's going on in your life and if you have anything you'd like me to pray about!
Monday, September 14, 2009
Patience Is a Virtue?
Ok.
How do we know for sure that when we're crushing on someone, we're not completely wasting our time? I mean, really. I don't want to be sitting here pining over a guy who isn't the one that God has planned for me. That seems like an entire waste my life!
I think God should just be like, "Alright. You should do this now. You should crush on this person because you're going to marry him/her someday. Everything will work out fine. No worries."
I know that I should be patient. I know that God has someone and something incredible planned for my life. But still...I just want things to be easier. I just want things to make more sense.
How do we know for sure that when we're crushing on someone, we're not completely wasting our time? I mean, really. I don't want to be sitting here pining over a guy who isn't the one that God has planned for me. That seems like an entire waste my life!
I think God should just be like, "Alright. You should do this now. You should crush on this person because you're going to marry him/her someday. Everything will work out fine. No worries."
I know that I should be patient. I know that God has someone and something incredible planned for my life. But still...I just want things to be easier. I just want things to make more sense.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Sunday Excitement
Today, two very important things happened.
Thing Number One: I watched my first horror movie ever. Even though technically my head was buried in my sweatshirt, and my ears were plugged, I still think it counts. I was scared, it was dark, and I never want to watch it again. That counts as a horror movie experience, don't you think?
Thing Number Two: I finally got a huge weight lifted off my chest by telling my best friend something that I've been keeping a secret basically since May. It feels good to let it go.
Tell me what your Sunday Excitement was!
Thing Number One: I watched my first horror movie ever. Even though technically my head was buried in my sweatshirt, and my ears were plugged, I still think it counts. I was scared, it was dark, and I never want to watch it again. That counts as a horror movie experience, don't you think?
Thing Number Two: I finally got a huge weight lifted off my chest by telling my best friend something that I've been keeping a secret basically since May. It feels good to let it go.
Tell me what your Sunday Excitement was!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
New Music
Ok everyone....go here and listen to the song Sweet Sweet Sound by Sarah Reeves, please.
My friends and I saw her sing at a festival last night, and she was just amazing! She stood there playing her keyboard and singing, not putting on a show or anything, just praising God. It was so cool to see. She has an incredible voice. I love all of her songs, but I particularly love this song.
She also sang a song that wasn't on her album, but I want to post the lyrics here anyway. This song is such a powerful reminder that we have Someone who is bigger and stronger and more powerful than all of the millions of things that are screwing with our lives.
Here it is:
You are the source of life
I can't be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of you
I need you, Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else can I go?
There's no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow you
My heart is Yours for life
I need Your hand in mine
No one else will do
I put my trust in you
This world has nothing for me
I will follow you
This world has nothing for me
I will follow you
My friends and I saw her sing at a festival last night, and she was just amazing! She stood there playing her keyboard and singing, not putting on a show or anything, just praising God. It was so cool to see. She has an incredible voice. I love all of her songs, but I particularly love this song.
She also sang a song that wasn't on her album, but I want to post the lyrics here anyway. This song is such a powerful reminder that we have Someone who is bigger and stronger and more powerful than all of the millions of things that are screwing with our lives.
Here it is:
You are the source of life
I can't be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of you
I need you, Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else can I go?
There's no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow you
My heart is Yours for life
I need Your hand in mine
No one else will do
I put my trust in you
This world has nothing for me
I will follow you
This world has nothing for me
I will follow you
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
The Things That Make Me Smile
My best friend Abby, my protector from CODs (ask me if you don't understand)/my hero, posted on her blog a list of things that really annoy her. It inspired me to make a list of things that really make me happy. By the way, you should check out her blog here. It's under construction, but it's still fabulous.
Ok, so now for my list! Keep in mind that these are not in order (I don't like to discriminate in that way), and it is not all of the things that make me happy. That list would wrap around the entire world. Twice.
The Happy List
1. little kids
2. love songs
3. taking pictures
4. the city
5. heads-up pennies
6. fairy tales
7. gerber daisies
8. coloring
9. my siblings
10. cherry chocolate kisses
11. praising God
12. Starbucks
13. my family
14. bouncy balls
15. watching movies
16. staying up late
17. drinking chocolate milk
18. being on Yearbook Staff
19. music
20. elephants
21. The Young Continentals - Tour 3
22. writing
23. dancing
24. reading any and all books
25. musicals
26. Christmas
27. Disney Princess
28. singing
29. hugging
30. talking
31. pretzels
32. blogging
33. Facebook
34. s'mores with coconut marshmallows
35. my beautiful, wonderful, hilarious, fabulous, amazing friends
36. playing piano
37. Build-A-Bear Workshop
38. people with accents
39. chocolate
40. reading my Bible
Like I said, this could go on forever. Post your own list! I promise I'll read it!
Ok, so now for my list! Keep in mind that these are not in order (I don't like to discriminate in that way), and it is not all of the things that make me happy. That list would wrap around the entire world. Twice.
The Happy List
1. little kids
2. love songs
3. taking pictures
4. the city
5. heads-up pennies
6. fairy tales
7. gerber daisies
8. coloring
9. my siblings
10. cherry chocolate kisses
11. praising God
12. Starbucks
13. my family
14. bouncy balls
15. watching movies
16. staying up late
17. drinking chocolate milk
18. being on Yearbook Staff
19. music
20. elephants
21. The Young Continentals - Tour 3
22. writing
23. dancing
24. reading any and all books
25. musicals
26. Christmas
27. Disney Princess
28. singing
29. hugging
30. talking
31. pretzels
32. blogging
33. Facebook
34. s'mores with coconut marshmallows
35. my beautiful, wonderful, hilarious, fabulous, amazing friends
36. playing piano
37. Build-A-Bear Workshop
38. people with accents
39. chocolate
40. reading my Bible
Like I said, this could go on forever. Post your own list! I promise I'll read it!
Saturday, September 5, 2009
September Fun
I have been spending a lot of time with my wonderful friends lately. I've decided, just maybe, that by hanging out with my friends, the school year will go faster! School is going decent. There are some people that I'm having a few problems with, but I think it will be ok. I'm kind of stressed with my full schedule that I made for myself, but I think I can handle it. 
This was when Corinne came back home for a visit from college. We had such a fun time hanging out with her. We had a great little hot tub party, even though the water was a little chilly.
My best friend Abby and I went shopping in the city before school started. We found these dresses, and we want them!! Too bad they are way too expensive. And it was a little big on Ab.
For my 18th birthday, I went to the zoo with my family. We had such a fun day. I waited all day to see the elephants because they're my favorite, but unfortunately, there were no elephants at the zoo that we went to. I did see zebras, though, and they're my second favorite. And, I found this fabulous garbage can. I want one for my bedroom!
Well, that's pretty much all that's been going on lately. I would really appreciate it if you would pray for me as I continue the never-ending college search. I'm waiting for God to show me exactly what to do, so I just ask that you pray that I have patience. Let me know what you need prayer for!
This was when Corinne came back home for a visit from college. We had such a fun time hanging out with her. We had a great little hot tub party, even though the water was a little chilly.
My best friend Abby and I went shopping in the city before school started. We found these dresses, and we want them!! Too bad they are way too expensive. And it was a little big on Ab.
For my 18th birthday, I went to the zoo with my family. We had such a fun day. I waited all day to see the elephants because they're my favorite, but unfortunately, there were no elephants at the zoo that we went to. I did see zebras, though, and they're my second favorite. And, I found this fabulous garbage can. I want one for my bedroom!
Well, that's pretty much all that's been going on lately. I would really appreciate it if you would pray for me as I continue the never-ending college search. I'm waiting for God to show me exactly what to do, so I just ask that you pray that I have patience. Let me know what you need prayer for!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Happy September!
I will admit that when I woke up this morning, I was not exactly in a "Happy September" mood. School starts tomorrow, and I will officially be a senior. I am really excited about that, but there's just so much that's bringing me down about school already. Waking up at 5:30 in the morning because we have to leave early with my dad, doing homework and trying to keep up with all of the insane classes my dad and I signed me up for, skipping lunch to go to Yearbook/Chorus, trying to find time to get my license - ugh. It's just a lot. Last year I was miserable. It was horrible. Every day, my prayer was just, "God, get me through it. Let the end of the day come fast. Just help me through it."
But this year, I have decided to make my final year of high school worthwhile. My prayer every day will be, "God, give me someone who needs me in their life. Give me ways to impact students and community members. Give me a smiling face and a great attitude. Give me peace and calm in my stressful world. Give me patience for dealing with problems. Show me how to light my school on fire for You."
I am asking that you all please pray for me and my attitude in school. I tend to become a stressed, angry, crazy mess, and I am requesting that you pray that I am calm and joyful and at peace. I just have this feeling that there are people in my school that really need me this year. There are people who need smiles and hugs and cheerfulness, and I want to give that to them. I want to have a good attitude, and I want everyone to know as I walk down the halls that I am happy because I am a follower of Jesus Christ. I want them to want that happiness for themselves.
Thanks for praying, friends. Let me know how I can pray for you, too.
But this year, I have decided to make my final year of high school worthwhile. My prayer every day will be, "God, give me someone who needs me in their life. Give me ways to impact students and community members. Give me a smiling face and a great attitude. Give me peace and calm in my stressful world. Give me patience for dealing with problems. Show me how to light my school on fire for You."
I am asking that you all please pray for me and my attitude in school. I tend to become a stressed, angry, crazy mess, and I am requesting that you pray that I am calm and joyful and at peace. I just have this feeling that there are people in my school that really need me this year. There are people who need smiles and hugs and cheerfulness, and I want to give that to them. I want to have a good attitude, and I want everyone to know as I walk down the halls that I am happy because I am a follower of Jesus Christ. I want them to want that happiness for themselves.
Thanks for praying, friends. Let me know how I can pray for you, too.
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