Twenty Ten

I think I'm an insomniac. Sleep and I used to be best friends. Now there's a gigantic rift through our relationship.

The headaches are back. Thank you, SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder).

My resolutions for the big year - 2010 - are extremely difficult to keep:

1) Don't eat chocolate.
2) Don't eat junk food.
3) Don't drink pop.
4) Lose weight
5) Don't hate the snow. It's part of God's creation, too.
6) Don't hate on people. They're part of God's creation, too.
7) Don't gossip.
8) Don't stress out so much you get sick.
9) Make it to All-States.
10) Be positive.

Lost

I am a brand new Lost fan.

Abby has always wanted someone to discuss the show with her, so over vacation, I began all the way back at Season One with about 108 episodes to watch.

I then watched 24 of those episodes in less than 72 hours.

Ridiculous, I know. But I officially love the show. It's so good. And it's just one of those things where you can't stop watching, and after six hours of watching it has gone by, you've barely even noticed!

Kind of like Bones.

Oh, and Avatar. I saw that the other day, too. Unfortunately, it wasn't in 3D, but it was still a completely awesome movie. I can't wait to watch it again.

Sadly, all of this...watching stuff...doesn't leave very much time for reading. Don't worry. I'll fix that soon.

Rough, rough, rough day.

Can I just go back to sleep, wake up, and start it all over again?

I bounce back. I always do. Just give me a couple weeks.

This time, though...it really sucks.

Enamored

Ok. I'll admit it.

I HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM!

And you know...I'm finally ok with it. Sure, it will probably amount to nothing, but for once, I'm ok with that. Simply having a crush and having something and someone to look forward to is extremely nice. As long as I go into this knowing that it won't turn out how I'm hoping, then I will be ok.

And I leave for vacation in four days. I will then have approximately two weeks to get over this silly infatuation and start fresh for the new year.

It's all going to be just fine.

For once, I am not going to hide or run from my feelings.

It's about time I let go a little bit.

Lightbulb

Just because I am the way I am doesn't mean that's how I want to stay.

I know I've made choices, but I've also just been waiting for a long time.

I'd like to say it was worth it, but I don't know if that's entirely true anymore.

"He is before all things, and in Him, all things hold together." Colossians 1:17

Sucktastic = Fantastic!

So...the day was iffy. I have a beyond-fabulous Yearbook Staff who have been working their butts off to make deadline, and I'm extremely impressed with them. We are...drumroll please...GOING TO MAKE DEADLINE!!! This will the first time in about five years, so I am thoroughly and completely pumped. The girls are doing such a great job, and I'm really proud of them.

There was a disgusting amount of wind today, and it was freezing. Oh, PA. You're trying to kill me. And there were power surges, which meant our Yearbook pictures temporarily disappeared. Seriously...I am totally going to get shingles again from all of this off and on stress. Ugh!

I have four tests tomorrow, unfortunately in all of my super-hard classes. Not good.

Tonight was my very last high school Christmas concert EVER. I had a little sad-fest with Kreig and Ben (I'll miss them so much!); however, our singing left...a little to be desired. So I'm not as sad as I normally would be.

But to end this interesting day, the most wonderful thing in the world occurred (besides meeting Prince Charming and living happily ever after or getting to go to Heaven right this very second). GLEEEEEEE!!!!!! The season finale (I'm so sad it's over) was incredible! I cried, of course, and then I cried some more at the end at the most beautiful happy ending in the world.

And it just made me stick to my decision a little bit more:

There is no way on earth I am settling for anything less than Prince Charming.