CHRISTMAS!!!!

In honor of my beautiful new Christmas blog (complete with a personalized holiday playlist!), I'm posting a Christmas survey. For those of you who haven't caught on yet...Christmas is my absolute favorite favorite favorite holiday of the whole entire year! :)

1) What is your favorite Christmas movie? Oh my goodness...I have so many! Probably the ones I can watch over and over and over again are Elf, Polar Express, How the Grinch Stole Christmas, White Christmas, and of course all of the brilliant Christmas movies they have on TV every year.

2)What is your favorite Christmas-type special TV program/programs? Definitely, definitely, definitely the 25 Days of Christmas special on ABC family. Soooo good!! Oh, and when they play Elf for a week straight. That's always fun. And the Charlie Brown Christmas movie, of course.

3) What is your favorite Christmas song/album? How can I even choose?!?! I love all Christmas music. It's my favorite music ever. I start listening to it on October 1st every year.

4) Who do you give presents to? My family, grandparents, and close friends

5) What is your favorite tradition? Watching Polar Express while decorating the tree, making a gingerbread house, eating candy canes, making hot chocolate with candy canes, listening to Christmas music in church on Christmas Eve...there are just so many!

6) When do you start decorating? Usually right around Thanksgiving.

7) When do you start getting in the Christmas mood? SO EARLY!!!! I love Christmas so much. Usually around the end of September/beginning of October I start getting real excited.

8) How do you pass the long weeks before Christmas? I listen to Christmas music every single day as much as I can. I watch all of the Christmas movie specials. I shop. I make hot chocolate with candy canes. I decorate the tree and then sit in front of it and just stare.

9) What is better giving or receiving? I'll admit that I really love getting presents. But I also love shopping for other people, wrapping their gifts, and then watching their reactions when they open them. And it's fun to just chill with your family in a Christmas atmosphere without gifts at all. I love that.

10) What is your favorite element of Christmas? The birth of Christ! The excitement/joyfulness you can practically feel in the air! Pretty much everything! I adore Christmas!

Go ahead....everyone fill out this survey if you'd like. I promise I'll read it!

I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Hey everyone.

I ended up absolutely loving Belmont University. And Nashville. That's now my top choice for schools, and I already know exactly what I'd like to major in. It's so weird to have gone for months and months floundering around with no clue what to do with myself and now having it all figured out, or mostly. Way cool feeling. I'm so thankful to God for finally letting me know what my future should be. I've been waiting for a long time.

Recently, I have two things stuck in my head. They just won't go away. They're there when I eat, dance, sing, read, sleep, and write - especially write.

The first thing will be taken care of in 23 days. I'm on countdown, and I hate it. I'm the type of person who takes everything way out of proportion, getting excited or sad about the smallest thing. Resting everything I have on one single day, like I'm doing now, usually gives me really horrible results. I'm trying not to be a total basketcase.

The second thing is John Keats. He won't leave me alone! I finally watched Bright Star, and of course, I started crying 30 minutes into the movie. I have his poem book, and all of the romantic letters he wrote to Fanny Brawn - and I read them all the time. I read them every single day. I just can't stop thinking about them. I don't know what to do with myself.

That's about all I have for you. I'm obsessed. Story of my life.

It's Nashville Week!

I'm so excited! Thursday after school, my parents and I are driving to Nashville to visit Belmont University! I'm really excited about the school and the area and just EVERYTHING. I hope I like it because this is the best I have felt during the entire college search so far.

Also, tomorrow I'm going to see the neurologist to finally get these 24/7 headaches figured out. I hope they can fix me up!

And wonderful news...

BRIGHT STAR IS PLAYING AT THE LOCAL THEATER!!!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!

I have been waiting to see this movie for forever, and I haven't been able to find it at any theater. And now...it's coming to my town! This week! I can't wait!

For those of you who don't know, the movie is about the love story of John Keats.

Read my last post to understand my love of Mr. Keats.

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"Upon my Soul I can think of nothing else. The time is passed when I had power to advise and warn you against the unpromising morning of my Life. My love has made me selfish. I cannot exist without you. I am forgetful of everything but seeing you again - my Life seems to stop there - I see no further. You have absorb'd me. I have a sensation at the present moment as though I was dissolving - I should be exquisitely miserable without the hope of soon seeing you. I should be afraid to separate myself far from you...I have been astonished that Men could die Martyrs for religion - I have shuddr'd at it. I shudder no more - I could be martyr'd for my Religion - Love is my religion - I could die for that. I could die for you. My Creed is Love and you are its only tenet. You have ravish'd me away by a Power I cannot resistl and yet I could resist till I saw you; and even since I have seen you I have endeavoured often 'to reason against the reasons of my Love.' I can do that no more - the pain would be too great. My love is selfish. I cannot breathe without you."

"Ask yourself my love whether you are not very cruel to have so entrammelled me, so destroyed my freedom...For myself I know not how to express my devotion to so fair a form: I want a brighter word than bright, a fairer word than fair. I almost wish we were butterflies and liv'd bu three summer days - three such days with you I could fill with more delight than fifty common years could ever contain...In case of the worst that can happen, I shall still love you."

"I am at the diligent use of my faculties here, I do not pass a day without sprawling some blank verse or tagging some rhymes; and here I must confess, that (since I am on that subject) I love you the more in that I believe you have liked me for my own sake and for nothing else. I have met with women whom I really think would like to be married to a Poem and to be given away by a Novel."

"You cannot conceive how I ache to be with you: how I would die for one hour - for what is in the world? I say you cannot conceive; it is impossible you should look with such eyes upon me as I have upon you: it cannot be. Forgive me if I wander a little this evening, for I have been all day emply'd in a very abstract Poem and I am deeply in love with you - two things which must excuse me. "

"You fear, sometimes, I do not love you so much as you wish? My dear Girl I love you ever and ever and without reserve. The more I have known the more have I lov'd. In ever way - But for Love! Can I help it? You are always new...Even if you did not love me I could not help an entire devotion to you: how much more deeply then must I feel for you knowing you love me. My mind has been the most discontented and restless one that ever was put into a body too small for it. I never felt my Mind repose upon anything with complete and undistracted enjoyment - upon no person but you. When you are in the room my thoughts never fly out of window: you always concentrate me whole senses."

"I wish you to see how unhappy I am for love of you, and endeavour as much as I can entice you to give up your whole heart to me whose whole existence hangs upon you. You could not step or move an eyelid but it would shoot to my heart - I am greedy of you. Do not think of anything but me. Do not live as if I was not existing. Do not forget me."

"I have been a walk this morning with a book in my hand, but as usual I have been occupied with nothing but you: I wish I could say in an agreeable manner. I am tormented day and night...You are to me an object intensely desirable - the air I breathe in a room empty of you is unhealthy."

"I long to believe in immortality. I shall never be able to bid you an entire farewell. If I am destined to be happy with you here - how short is the longest Life. I wish to believe in immortality - I wish to live with you for ever...Let me be but certain that you are mine heart and soul, and I could die more happily than I could otherwise live...My love to you is true as truth's simplicity and simpler than the infancy of truth."

I adore John Keats.

I Love English Class

Recent developments have made this a very excellent week.

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